“Amy, please don't do this. Okay? I know your nature is not bad, don't do this by yourself? I don't regret to have such a good friend, even though we know time is not very long, but I can understand how you feel now. Your heart is as it should be, but please don't torment so yourself. Let go, you can find a better for you guys. Don't give up to a tree the whole forest, understand?（Amy，请你不要这样子好吗？我知道你的本性并不坏的，不要这样子摧残自己好吗？我不后悔有你这么一个好朋友，即使我们认识的时间并不是很长，但是我很能了解你现在的感受。你痛心是应该的，但是请不要再这么折磨你自己了。放手吧，你能找到一个对你更好的男生。不要为了一棵树而放弃了整个森林，懂吗？）”不知道是什么力量促使的，我竟然说出了这样的话，我很害怕又这么刺激到她了，但是我还是说出口了，这是我内心里真正的想法。

　　 “I said, you are not saints, you are not God, you can't, no ability to control my destiny. You understand me now is what taste? How is it possible, how can you understand, you don't understand, you grew up in a hothouse flowers, how will understand outside the rain is so strong, you stop being so in front of me out a hypocritically look, the way you make me feel sick.（我说了，你不是圣人，你也不是上帝，你不可能，也没有能力主宰我的命运。你懂我现在是什么滋味？怎么可能，你怎么可能会懂，你不会懂的，你这些在温室里长大的花朵，怎么会明白外面的风雨是这么的强烈，你不要再这么在我面前摆出一个假惺惺的样子了，你的样子让我觉得很恶心。）”她狠狠的看着我，似乎想要把我吃掉似得，但是我还是要向她说出我想说的，即使不知道我说出来之后，她会有什么样激烈的反应。

　　 “No, you listen to me...... Ah!（不是，你听我说……啊！）”我话还没用说完整，就被她的一个巴掌给制止了。

　　 “Amy！”伊泽衡一阵暴走。我马上拦住了伊泽衡，不然他真的会打她的。

　　 “You don't say anything, I do not want to hear, I do not want to hear, you give me ah, I don't want to see you, you make people feel very nausea, do you know? You don't really think you are God? This a slap in the face to tell you, your physical pain to tell you, you are just like me and mortal!（你什么都不要说，我什么都不想听，我什么都不想听，你给我走开啊，我不想要看到你，你的样子让人觉得很恶心你知不知道啊？你该不会真正的认为你是上帝吧？这一巴掌告诉你，你肉体的疼痛告诉你，你只不过是和我一样的凡人而已！）”Amy见我拦住了伊泽衡，伊泽衡也没有再做任何的反抗，便是一阵轻蔑的笑。为什么我做的一切，我真心为她付出的一切在她眼里看来都变成是虚伪？难道我就真的这么虚伪吗？

　　 “You believe it or not, believe it either, but you please hear me out...... Once I, also had this trouble you now, I love the people, he doesn't love me. I waited for him for twelve years, twelve years is a concept of what? Number twelve years of life? When we met, we love each other, we marry, so what? Her earliest chose to give up this true our. You know, when I saw his arms holding another girl, what kind of mood I am? Resentment? I can't really go to hate him, so, I chose to leave. Leave my native city, or even to avoid him, leave my most loving motherland.（你信也好，不信也罢，但是请你先听我说完……曾经的我，也有过你现在的这个烦恼，我爱的人，他不爱我。我等了他十二年，十二年是什么概念？人生有多少个十二年？当我们重遇了，我们相爱了，我们谈婚论嫁了，那又怎样？她最早还是选择了放弃我们的这段真挚。你知不知道，当我看到他怀里抱着另一个女生的时候，我是什么样的心情？愤恨吗？我不能做到真正去恨他，于是，我选择了离开。离开我土生土长的城市，甚至为了避开他，离开我最爱的祖国。）”我说着，慢慢的说着，说到一半的时候声音开始哽咽，但是我还是坚持把它说完。这是我最痛苦的经历，我最不想机器的经历。

　　 “God gave me a chance, let me lose all memory, let me live a good life, but a strange combination of circumstances, I still love him, hell-bent in love with him. Up to now, feel really silly, stupid.（老天爷给了我一个机会，让我失去所有的记忆，让我重新过一个美好的人生，但是阴差阳错的，我还是爱上了他，死心塌地的爱上了他。现在想起来，觉得自己真的很傻，很傻。）”我听到我的声音里微微的带着哭腔，咬字开始有点不清晰。

　　 “You say what is the use of this, maybe you just acting is good, I will not believe you, if you really want me to do it, I can also show this effect.（你说这个有什么用，或许只是你演技太好，我不会相信你，要是真的要我演的话，我也能演出这样的效果。）”Amy还是用她那种轻蔑的眼神来看着我，我仰着头，尽力不让泪水决堤。

　　 “Yes, that sounds not true, it is like I wrote the story, or...... This?（对，那个听起来太不真实了，就像是我自编自导自演的故事，那……这个呢？）”我把戴在手腕上的白色石英表微微地推了上去，露出了腕关节动脉的位置。上面明显的有几条被利器划过的痕迹。

　　 “I have to him and hurt myself, is this kind of pain makes me awake, I can not be so sink, without him, I and my friends, my family, my future is bright. As I have said to you, I should not give up the whole forest for a tree.（我竟为了他而伤害我自己，就是这种痛苦让我醒觉，我不能再这么沉沦下去了，没有了他，我还有我的朋友，我的家人，我的前途还是一片光明的。就像我刚刚跟你说的，我不应该为了这么一棵树而放弃整片森林。）”我微微的用指尖触碰着那几条并不太明显的伤痕。